[He should be blamed. He should be held accountable. Why shouldn't he be?]
[Just like he wants to say "won't". Because won't means stubborn. It means choosing, being in some kind of denial. It means a conscious decision to give up. Not something out of his control, some new, huge wall he has no idea how to climb.]
I can't. All right? [Is what snaps out of his throat instead. All while his brain is screaming at him to shut up. To stop putting this on Lance's shoulders, who absolutely doesn't need his crap.] I can't. I tried up there! All I could think about was getting out again! Leaving!
[At least it's honest. Admitting it. It sounds like you're giving up - when he's never given up on anything in his life.]
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[Just like he wants to say "won't". Because won't means stubborn. It means choosing, being in some kind of denial. It means a conscious decision to give up. Not something out of his control, some new, huge wall he has no idea how to climb.]
I can't. All right? [Is what snaps out of his throat instead. All while his brain is screaming at him to shut up. To stop putting this on Lance's shoulders, who absolutely doesn't need his crap.] I can't. I tried up there! All I could think about was getting out again! Leaving!
[At least it's honest. Admitting it. It sounds like you're giving up - when he's never given up on anything in his life.]
I can't.